Cindy Kuangry

My graduating class at school has our own Facebook group where people are allowed to post about classes, books, etcetc (but they usually post about whatever they want, anyway). But anywho, it confuses me when people ask if other students have taken easy classes or had easy professors / graders… I don’t get it. You’re paying for a college education (w/ constant tuition hikes!) and you’re trying to get the easiest classes possible just so your GPA would be a little higher… yeah, it just doesn’t make sense to me. I’d rather learn a lot from good, helpful professors who challenge their students to improve than receive an A in a class where a professor didn’t teach me anything. Yeah, grades are important but  the knowledge you attain is worth so much more, that’s what really counts in the end! … :/ I’d honestly take a —(this is hard for me to say)—less-than-an-A grade learning from a knowledgeable professor than an A+ grade from an instructor who didn’t teach me anything new or intriguing. *Sigh.

This summer, I have searched for jobs more than I ever have before… because I never tried til now. AND IT FREAKING SUCKS. I’ve applied to so many and now instead of Facebook, I go to my email first in hopes of seeing some replies from employers… which is very slim. I’m not giving up though, I made it my goal to find a job this summer, and I will! Otherwise… I might as well live on the streets during the upcoming school year :/ I refuse to let my parents pay for me.

But on another note, I have other goals I am going to fulfill. I am going to start getting in shape again. Not just for the summer, but for good. Wrestling season will be coming up very, very soon and I want t be in shape so that I can focus on my technique instead of worrying about cardio. Also, I’m going to learn Spanish and hopefully some Cantonese online :) Just going to watch tons of shows and learn that way. And of course, spend time with family and friends. 

Things are kinda stressful right now, but I am content ^___^ Hello, summer.

First off, graduation seemed like it went by so much faster than it did last year, haha. Anyway, I went to graduation and watched some of my closest friends cross the stage… I can’t believe they’re growing up so fast. I can’t believe I’m growing up so fast… it felt like my high school graduation only happened yesterday, and now these kids are all going to part ways and go off to college & do other things with their lives. It’s very bittersweet. I’ve known some of these kids since they were freshmen, and its just such an amazing thing to see that they’ve all grown up so much. Haha, getting super sappy right now, but all I can say is “wow”…

Another great year. I wish all the graduating seniors the best, I’m so proud of all of them. 

Whenever I get upset or sad, I think of you. I think of how you would start off by saying “homie,” and continue by letting me know that everything will be fine. I’m so upset right now and I can’t even figure out how to calm down. I can’t. And I miss having you here to comfort me and help me see the bright side of things when situations get rough. You always had a talent for that, especially while you were hospitalized. You definitely had some bad days, but you didn’t let it ruin your fighting spirit. I wish I was as strong as you, Joong. I want to be like you. I just wish you were here. I still think of you every night before I go to sleep. Sometimes I don’t even know why I wake up anymore. I miss you so damn much and right now I just don’t feel like giving two shiets about anything. Can you believe it? I’m almost done with my first year of college after these two finals. I wish you were here to celebrate me when Tuesday is over… I miss you so much. Words can’t explain the pain of losing you. Its still hard for me to carry on with my life without you here. I’m going to see you soon… I love you, bro. Sweet dreams.